Crumbling

Torrance's POV

I sat in the chair, pulling my knees up to my chest like I always did. Trying to suppress the ache in my chest. The ache that only Nick can fill. My mind, body, and soul seemed to be numb from the love I have.

I sat and stared at the wall for hours, thinking about everything from when we were together. Nick was, is, and always will be my life. My other half.

My first memory coming back was what I had dreamed of, the first time we met and our first date. Nick was amazing. The very next morning he came by and insisted on taking me to breakfast.

I was suddenly remembering other smaller things. Like how every friday after work he would bring home a single white rose and chinese take out. It always brought tears to my eyes. Even more so now.

Once in a while he would clean the kitchen and try to put everything away, he always ended up putting things in the wrong place and irritate the hell out of me. I had to go in behind him and put everything in its correct place or it would driving me crazy.

I tried to force the memories away but that just made them stronger and more realistic. It felt like I was back in our house with his arms wrapped around me, cuddling on the couch watching our favorite movie, Forrest Gump. He use to tell me I was his Jenny.

My life isn't the same without him.

It almost made me laugh how after living together for so long he would forget that I hated broccoli. Or that I had to have my hair brush on the right side of the sink.

Nick is the worlds best man. At least, in my eyes he is. I miss him so much. Remembering all these things about us is making the hole in my chest deeper and wider. With nothing in the future to fill it.

I got up off the chair and stumbled through the house into the bedroom, curling up and sobbing as all the hurt came washing over me. I remembered in exlicit detail what happened that day Nick left me.

I came home from work to find the note, when I read it I fell to the floor curling up in a ball and crying until I couldn't cry anymore. Two days later Parker came by "to check on me" and I was still in the same place with the note clutched in my hand. Supposedly, he came by to tell Nick something. I realize now what I should have along time ago. Parker said the following when he found me and I told him what happened: "Damn, he's gone? That easy?" I didn't understand it then but now I do. And I can't do anything about it. Except go after Nick and try to get him to change his mind about leaving me permanantly. I love Nick and I don't want to have to try and go on without him.

I rolled out of bed and took a shower, knowing what I had to do...